>2 : An Anthology of Collaborations
Mary Rising Higgins and George Kalamaras
Who Feed Their Leaves
Asphalt howl sunblinds Route 66 brakeride west Heartnerve, wordsway mum
I was busy looking up My blame as spilled into sky
Signature heat swim Heartbrain beats in utero Closedcurve space earth strings
Protozoan gentle tongue God, not more geography!
Big Bang launch squares off Before a past begins to Flow time inventing
Said, fly on the carving knife Mask the moan, the terrible
Local gravity Freefalls clockpulse neon wake Sered foothills blueshift
Ester of terrible leaves Salty salty dusk I might
No one’s asked me To tell how the psyche folds Plaits found tape circuits
This epsom dress zither me Hand me the zebra finch bleed
From spin wound axis If you come back might tell where Star catch corridors
It takes me awhile to Warm to the idea of fault
Bruise diva flaunt for Carrion fly, flesh beetle Pure corpse lilies bloom
Palmerworms injured fruit trees It is I who feed their leaves
At centerstage arc Fan ribbing foregrounds, fragments Worldline timecurves groove
One shoulder about to slink As if I bite a vowel
From road shoulder halt Workout mode survive thrall paints Flyover speedscuff
Show me your tongue, the rampike I could, if I want, be that
Hunger browse retails Mall air sting—high dark musk note For Sale signs gird
Okay, while, therefore, perhaps Words, she said, palladium
Dustpurls volt balance Remote current switches right Left, we’ll dance ear struck
Please excuse my any-such Lamellate me, make me need
Black moat pawn sets out Rackskin drawn up as sail Loss, gain : net forces
A gravel rakes through my chest Nothing as distinct as a
Build upon what is Known’s fantail dancebond refract Reed flex shift distills
Having certain attributes We somehow manage to live
CD bassbeats dose Graffiti rap streetdrop tools Kickback weekends hood
We evaded eviction Even Eurydice swelled
Matter, yes, nothing Infinite modes depict one Body of zero
The last word in the big book Is not acute zygosis
To see what is there What is there reflects ravels Reflect ravels what is there What is there ravel reflects What there is reflects ravel Reflects ravel what is there What there is reflects raveling Reflecting what is there ravels There ravels what is reflecting What is reflecting there ravels Ravel reflecting what there is Reflecting ravels what is there There is ravels what’s reflecting There is what ravel reflected What is raveling reflects there Ravel what is there reflecting Reflect what is there raveling Reflected what is there ravels Highspeed e–pause flips
Love carves to active detach How much : just so : moves amazed
If I had a name I would ask it to name me Surely it would glow
Absorb, release box-tuned light Harmonic dissonance joules
Fish wrapped in newsprint So, the Chinese blood pheasant Another thing’s thing
Blue-belled field, trenches mine Patterned hunger seeds, entrains
So comes the word so Bite my nipple here It’s the Zen Buddhist cliché Say the constant sorrow Everything’s simple Use the word forgive
Tangible, intangible Ineffable rivers drive Self gapping catchstreams meshwork Identity whitewaters
Please accept my lice I give them only respect Brahms-bed my sore mouth
Special relative scales Marine heat jouled, egressing
Whenever I strip I feel alive as eel fire Mammalian my tongue
The virtual year>2ns, observes Biofeed binge hitchcrave aches
Tie my mouth with sphinx Heretofore and hence; Ask me the marry true north However; because; although; Slip-soap the word to Great good fortunate
Along a River Vagus Birds of Paradise, vase cut, Breathblood worldshores floodgates branch Bow to high red Torch Ginger
No precious pretense of oriental insights but perhaps stretching
Nowcurrent scat jams echo That-was-then-what’s-now-then-what
Please hand me the pears I’m thinking of the Congo Hand me, yes, cut hands
Rely upon its own sake Simplicity falls back to
Strip nomadic bees From this brazier of breathing Dissolve my disperse
In vogue revelations bell Gong centers resonate, rim
Love Simone’s third name The one that’s rising through me Saying, die die die
Ads everywhere read as if Bright confetti defines her
I might the word stink It would be an urge I’d breathe Fierce suppers of straw
Green-gold-red rivers arrow Orange barricades current bent
I’ve never written I never renku nor risk If you will my spleen
Properties of extreme break Open at vanishing fields
Forgive my spasm Cut away all muck and much Coffee mug my heart
Sand shapes from retelling’s frame War as red kiss, as orchids
***** Collaboration for “Who Feed Their Leaves” began in September 2005, when Mary Rising Higgins emailed George Kalamaras asking him to participate in a blind chance haiku exchange with her. She’d just finished reading his Even the Java Sparrows Call Your Hair (Quale Press, 2004) and wanted to learn more about his “marvelous” (in the surreal sense) use of language while creating a “real renku” for an R poem she was writing. Mining chance operations from Surrealism, in the spirit of Breton, Desnos, Eluard, et al., was of particular interest to George; extending discontinuity, parataxis, and what Bruce Andrews calls “the theater of between”—despite narrow precise limits—was of particular interest to Mary. They agreed to exchange, cut up, and draw sequences to create haiku combinations. Their procedures included meditative attention and accepting chance combinations. The 30 renku links developed gradually during the course of nearly a year that went in many directions for them both. In May 2006, they completed the collaboration with a more organic revision that attended to each syllable. The experience proved to be informing and rich for both writers. The authors thank Sugar Mule for giving “Who Feed Their Leaves” an opportunity to be read.
MRH & GK
Maria Damon and mIEKAL aND
eros/ion [A dark blue dress] rises from the cold frost fields, apprehended dimly. In a cold season of wakened witchery, [dark hands] make difference among its folds, hope is the same as grief. I am reminded that I fashion my own openings by the dreams that own me. There are so many, how do I choose?
[dark hands] Once [5 rivers ago] my hands didn't belong next to his heart, yet I put them close by because I could not resist the thrashing desire of not having him within my grasp... & could anything matter as much as the [guilt] that observed my every urge. My hands that would fold sheets of rice-paper late into the night into irregular accordion books, stories that would never be remembered until the vagrant text came to settle by my pillow, some thirty years later.
[a dark blue dress] Taking it off the first time, [the mirror hidden], the curtains drawn over the windows. Him, walking down the hall, slow footsteps of anticipation, the dress will never fit the same again. How do I understand the feel of the fabric, [having never touched the body] the dress borders upon, the sacred integument in which godhead is revealed and concealed.
[The mirror hidden] from view, from the ordinary pleasure of watching yourself touch soft & feel open. In many ways you & I have been interchangeable in this yet-to-be-realized life of passion, [lipsticking discrete signs] of the unattainable in the attic behind the mirror, where no one can see [the anxious graffiti you call obsession]. The slightest scent of a subtext, and i lose my bearings.
[the anxious graffiti you call obsession] It was all the same poem three years long and it was all for you; as the poem moved over time you became the prima causa, so good to me, so kind to indulge my fantasy, in your [absentia mystica] i became a thin shimmer of yearning, a pure surface of hurt too beautiful to look at straight, a [jewel hollowed] of presence. I saw myself as crown to your throne, a deluded Narcissa.
[jewel hollowed] A glyph that is, i was myself yes a jewel encrypted in a jewel, hollowed by writing, carving your story in my hollow wooden amulet (shaped like a pear) with a burning needle. Journals and diaries were too heavy, my body too heavy, I wanted my body to be all [air], pure space inside this dark bluegreen dress, materializing into flesh woman presence only for your pleasure. Most of the scriptings I threw away, never thinking i would need them now.
[air] The way he looked leaping up to catch a [fire in the ultimate] game. Darkness and pallor, that is who you were to me, a leaping cold fire in the blaze of night.
[fire in the ultimate] When the Unnameable came to me as a young shepherd boy he had your aspect, i wrote him into my articulable experience, my text, the one i parade to the world as Story. But, as i'd forgotten you, could it have been the true text? In that vision, the shepherd took my hand and we lay down by the still waters, where i let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth. His left hand was under my head, and his right hand did embrace me. I gave the dress away during those years, but it came back to my closet unobtrusively.
[absentia mystica] Remember [the first time he was about to give himself to you]. The eerie sonore concrèt panning from one side of the room to the other, not to be understood until much later, after he was found out, & you, [walking the lake edge], dispose your hesitations. By example, [I follow suit] in the next available moment.
[walking the lake edge] A wom/n's tors/, "surgically disarticulat//," cam/ to view in horrif// detai/... sord// matter of murde/, th/ unio/ derelic/ and beref/, later disprov// to be hers... wash// up at remot/ shor////
[I follow suit] There is a place I can go early in the morning, before waking to the day. Quiet, discreet, & for the moment troubled by what refuses to manifest. This is [an objective discourse I have with myself], run-on for years with no conclusions. At some point all the paint will have peeled from the house, old weathered siding [exposing] the original grain. Why paint over it?
[exposing] Friendship of bell and light, of night and dark bright pool, of moon and bed. A shiver so thinned down it slices my heart to grief-pieces. "The nature of my betrayal has always been a source of shame to me, even after making amends." Because i don't understand why i betray, over and over. ...ghost of a child i saw/ inside you ... someone i cd hurt when most i needed you.
[an objective discourse I have with myself] Every day i have a different self to compare to the person i was when i was in love with him, now years ago. Am i allowed to use your name here mIEKAL? In friendship's name, this is what keeps me going. that he has come back into my life, even mediated by the tabloids and the horrific sensationalism around the case, gives me reason to live.
[the first time he was about to give himself to you] was in a seedy townhouse in the New Ilium mysteriously empty. For many years afterwards i endowed that moment with spiritual attributes how thoughtful my prose here when i would say the erotic password that would bring him back murder and all and yes would be the word for the rest of time, for the winter is past, the rain is over and gone; the flowers appear on the earth; the time of the singing of birds is come.
[lipsticking discrete signs] Some years later I visited those markings quite by chance, on the prowl for your dark blue dress which you had carefully packed away in a battered steamer-trunk. [Initials I couldn't read], hearts flattened by broken passions, tic marks of how many times his face appeared in your dreams & the twining red lines that connected them all together.
[initials I couldn't read] Not because of legibility, but because I couldn't identify what language the characters were derived from. The initials looked indo-european, but not contemporary, much closer to ancient Hittite, deliberately drawn. Prhps thy wrnt ntls t ll. Prhps thy wr nvctns f bsssn trnsmttd crss cntrs bt dnt sk hw thy gt thr.[*]
[*] Perhaps they weren't initials at all. Perhaps they were invocations of obsession transmitted across centuries, but don't ask how they got there.
[having never touched the body] For years berated herself, she had been too passive, she had not been right. Never not never let him do. She wrote, just a young girl: "For the [prologue of my book]/ I had to pretend I'd resolved you in myself/It seems now like a dirty trick." But let him raise the dress [over her shoulders], her arms. In her remembered feeling-vision, nothing could compare.
[over her shoulders] & above the window. The right ordering of the lovers from my past. But they are all there, always, never less than, always waiting for me to change. The present can be worthy, but not in time to alter the past. Explicit text betrays our uniformity to a predictable occurrence of behaviors. You, beside me there, who you might be. There, in the clefts of the rock, in the secrets of the stairs.
[5 rivers ago] and as many oceans, hidden in the prose-word in his heart. He was the word "[kinetic]" as his knees bent he was the word "[grove]" as his black hair traced its lineaments of desire on her breast he was the word "[black river]" as it wounded him to be near her, in the garden bed of spices.
[kinetic] Does all love ultimately lead to practicing departure. For years, ever since reading The Pleasure of the Text, I have been [unable to write of love], love of –to confront the impracticality of using words & text as well as [Barthes]. Desiring instead to [populate the literature] with my own specie of text & stay out of the path of what is best said by someone else.
[unable to write of love] "They're coming at you, aren't they?" "Compared to the others it was a cinch." "Brought it this far, might as well finish." "Throwing caution to the wind, live every moment...." She said. He said. He said. He said. I soberly register this entry into our pleasureTEXT.
[Barthes] And for me not Barthes but his anagram –'s breath –is master text, the sacred cloth joining inside and outside, clasped by a jeweled belt, being the garment that i wore or wove for him at the moment when Isis was to be unveiled. drawing into and from myself the hand that writes the twinned lines of blood and ink. Far from being a bundle of abject rags, the dress is still pristine and hides her secrets behind the quilted breast-piece.
[populate the literature] Pain is redundant, who has time for it? It's not a matter of how long the recall flummers my heart. Possibility gauges a persuasion of micro-literatures bound by the locality of your habits as well the sonority every word speaks through. Properly encouraged text becomes [abundant] & what we hear matches what we read. Propulous mind, empty mind.
[abundant] The fig tree puts forth her green figs, and the vines are tender with fragrant grapes. Saffron, calamus and cinnamon all rejoice in this union, though it is purely imaginary. If all other scraptures were to die, to drown or burn in conflagration, to freeze in the steppes of unknown wilderness where no light comes, this would still be the holy of holies, and the earthly flame would leap to catch and be subsumed into the heaven-beings of light.
[grove] chased her thru the night of trees, care free, free of restraint, the wild play before poetry corrupts the ambiguity, the lessness in young male wanderlust. To have you his way; to have you my way. There remains much to know about cock & spleen, its devilish trust in an [Other theatre of love]. These are cycles, this pain & release. Yet some habits of pain are not not meant to torment /us.
[Other theatre of love] Act 1: Choose a lover over internet from the opposite side of the planet. Act 2: [Use only the truth to seduce]. Act 3: Arrange to meet in a place that neither of you have visited. Act 4: [Without speaking], without obligation, enter the Other. Act 5: [Discontinue contact].
[Use only the truth to seduce] This is the days of year when events happen far too quickly. & Now is the day of days we leap across. I keep my secrets in a car that doesn't drive in reverse. Or are these memories without recall, imagined to be squirreled away, unshareable. If you happen to be thumbing thru your envelope collection, do not look for them there.
[without speaking] Hum (mum) & hum (mum) again. [Holding your breath]? Let it out. Somewhere (surrounded by books) the exuberance, notable squalls. The intelligence therein. Words (why, why, why) that won't speak. Minus any opportunity (too close is too close). Grab her (the author in her role as teacher) a taxi on Broadway Avenue in any city in the US. & (mumBLE) to myself (journalless). "Hanging in." "There."
[Holding your breath] Incantatory buzzing, the cracked bell sounds and the friends are all hovering around, anxious for my welfare. What was it i meant to say? It's gone into that red/black world that rocked with the movement of waves. The sacred union took place at 2000 feet above the cold ocean, before the bride was bled and fell, and her bed was rocks and brine, and her hair was matted dark matter –webbed with garlands of seaweed and harsh twine, and this is not at all what i meant to say, but she the storm won't let me forget that other part of the story.
[Discontinue contact] Venus's father died cursing her for loving you. We heard him, much weakened near the end of his life, hobbling on his crutches to the door of his hell bedroom which he slammed shut in loud exhortation of disgust. on my two doors down bed, we froze in our paradise embrace, knowing the rage was directed at us. Shortly after that he died, and contact was indeed discontinued. “When Zeus is thwarted, lightning strikes.”
[black river] or kara çay in Turkish, having the double meaning of black river or black tea. In the morning, before poesy had the momentum to wake, all flows darkly away, her [secrets bitter as old tea], the very taste of the [inexpressible flooding] the sex of her arousal. The tea flows thru, one café at a time. Where i go, looking for my beloved through pane after pane of storefront.
[inexpressible flooding] One dull, dark, and soundless day in the autumn of the year, when the clouds hung oppressively low in the heavens, I had been passing alone through a singularly dreary tract of country, and at length found myself, as the shades of evening drew on, within view of the melancholy [House of Desire]. I don't know how it was –but with the first glimpse of the building, a sense of insufferable gloom pervaded my spirit. I say insufferable, for the feeling was unrelieved by any of that half-pleasurable, because poetic, sentiment, with which the mind usually receives even the sternest natural images of the desolate or terrible. I looked upon the scene before me –upon the mere house, and the simple landscape features of the domain –upon the bleak walls –upon the vacant eye-like windows –upon a few rank sedges –and upon a few white trunks of decayed trees –with an utter depression of soul, which I can compare to no earthly sensation more properly that to the after-dream of the reveller upon sexual addiction –the bitter lapse into everyday life –the hideous dropping of the veil. There was an iciness, a sinking, a sickening of the heart –an unredeemed dreariness of thought, which no goading of the imagination could torture into aught of the sublime. Nevertheless, in this mansion of gloom and eros/ion I now proposed to sojourn for some weeks. Its proprietor, Robert le Poirier, had been one of my boon companions, nay, the first love of my youth; but many years had elapsed since our last meeting. News had reached me in a distant part of the country –an obscure paragraph buried in a widely circulated journal –which, in its wildly disturbing nature, had admitted of no other than a visit to the vacated site of Desire. Although in our youth we had been even intimate, I really knew little of my friend. His reserve had always been excessive and habitual.
[House of Desire] Desire runs too fast she jumps too high she falls too strong it hurts her leg is broken she doesn't cry
Desire runs too fast she jumps too high she falls a part it hurts her heart is broken
too fast too high too deep her sadness killed her nobody cried after all she was a cat, a cat named Desire (by Sujen Dinçer)
[inexpressible flooding] I dreamed I entered the House of Desire and it sheltered a fecund, sun-filled atrium full of pomegranate, olive and fig trees and of course pear trees after his [Name]. A sublime dalliance with a love supreme takes place in this Song of Songs which is a garden, for he is the fairest and darkest, the most profound and the sweetest, the most accessible and the most unreachable, the sound and taste most constantly on my lips and the most ineffable and impalpable. We lie down in the green pasture and slip off the wedding garments, silver bracelets, red veils and all, and give the gifts of stone, feather, bone, pen and gold. [The fountain] in the center of the atrium plays its celestial spray in micromusics culminating culminating never culminating but circular in blissrounds coruscating over mica and marble in a scintillate texture of shimmered eros.
[The fountain] You cupped your indescribable hand in the pool of the fountain and drew it back filled with cool water. This you trickled on my open body, between breasts down to low belly, and rubbed barely tracing, a touch so light it called on all of me to express delight through silence, all of my being was centered on the movement of your fingers, and followed the meeting of skin on skin through infinitely nuanced raptures of friction and tickling. Mon coeur un luth suspendu (sitôt qu'on le touche il resonne). That the body could be a source of pleasure was a revelation that stopped all passage of time.
[Name] "comes dark matter, ghost-skein of things, all things virtual, in this and all possible worlds, the propriety of assignment in dialectic with what is observed as the real, the process of the proper name its continuous in-stantiation. [ghosts hanging on to ghosts], we are all of the imaginary, the symbolic nothing more than temporary stasis. look closely and see through all of this, the names disappearing, returning to the matter of the world."
[ghosts hanging on to ghosts] Hanging onto births being free of. Being free of translates readily into [effluvia]. Essence looks remarkably similar to essential. The material of is embodied in how we remember ourselves during deep sleep. Some discourse refutes the inexpressible, the [lover's discourse] is based upon what cannot be put into words. What we call life happens despite of & on to. Begin here to dissemble the order of my thoughts & the choice of words.
[effluvia] No end of pleasure-rivers, the flow burst from under ground, and the moss goddess was born. Who i became in your hands there was no going back. Gold flecks punctuated the flood in diamond motility and what i stopped in real life went on and on in memoria aeterna, passion wended back under the rock bridge and took up with the subterraines, wound round and round my heart a river turned into a snake ate my heart to protect it.
[lover's discourse] Night is incomparably expansive, an endless volupté. pleasure-river creeps between the pages and pulls them up over her head. When you left for a moment i slipped my dress back on, not because i didn't want you but because you were away too long. This you misread. There is no way to explain this, thirty years later when you are under house arrest.
[secrets bitter as old tea] I've an image of a seaside cafe where the tea is served in ornate red glassware. We are surrounded by orchards of figs, pomegranates & olives. As we walk away from the table, an inquisitive waitress reads the tea leaves to herself, "Unprovoked, the future will continue much as before. ...provocation bundles surprise with challenges & events never reveal themselves in linear fashion..."
[guilt] for having denied him, she wrote, "When i think of b, il me semble que je suis un bâteau qui est coupé d'abrit et qui err sur l'océan sans direction. Je sais qu'il y a de la terre quelque part, mais si je m'y trouverais, ce serait complètement par hazard. Je ne sais pas que faire," and folded it into an accordion book pressed between leaves of her mourning dress. Still a young girl. Savoir tout, c'est la mort, was what [she learned] that year.
[she learned] Also learned was "parole pleine, parole vide." Quand j'étais avec lui, c'était "parole pleine." Depuis que mon père est mort, c'est toujours "parole vide." J'oublis comment dire "meaning." Est-ce le même mot que "feeling." There is "langue" and there is "parole." One is flat like spit on a forked tongue, the other rolls into you and takes you over from the inside out, it is the jeweled apple of desire. She was a child learning lessons that she didn't need any more.
[prologue of my book] This is the life I want to live when you set me free, if only you drive me to act in ways I have yet to accept. [Many years from now I will write a subsequent story], every word your words as if you had the spleen to say them [when I am beside you]. Only much later you are all but forgotten as one of many desire-bodies in this mysterious flux I call [my life]. My attraction is propulsive, emanating from the faith each moment creates. Dancing alone, submitting to what chance will bestow.
[my life] One wonders who is writing this story. Is purity of narration to be achieved by identifying myself with only that which is male, or might the play of transgression possess an uncircumscribed realm for true fictive experience. That said, I would rarely write about my relationships, failed or otherwise, in my journal.
[Many years from now I will write a subsequent story] and like all stories it will be the imprint of a thorny crown on paper flesh. "How does it feel" was an anthem back then. How does it feel. It feels electricity. It feels energy. How does it feel to find out that the man who made you want to live killed the one he [loved best]?
[when I am beside you] As you did once before in the flesh took me into [stop-gap midnight]. Was all blue-black depth, was memor of rhodochrosite sunset into a dark redolence of touchtaste. Was long slender fingers no harm tremor my arms as the dress slides off.
[stop-gap midnight] Cracked open by desire, the silken skin that had hardened into a cocoon split and was discarded. The old poet is disappearing so a new poet can emerge. There was a wonderful friendly generosity between you, never forget that space that permits the imagination to move under the garment in sensual suggestion. The thorn comes home to the crown; the torn flesh heals from its incisive inscription into writing; the scar tissue is the text that must be approached with great tact, and touched with tender nuance.
[loved best] and you were my reason for living and you were my reason for living you were gone before i learned to call your name
Eros/ion is a self-eroding, unstable cenotaph, an exorcism and a love-poem, as love itself disappears by natural processes of decay, erosion, and circumstance, as well as by unnatural processes of violence. MD/ma
The following is a short statement about writing:
MISSING TEXT
Bird tracks began the communication routine. If recorded prehistory immobilized modernity & stepped out of line.... I have heard all of this before. A book located in a ready-made symbol, identified by a bibliography of waking no more than one anagram puzzled the remaining civilization. Talk around but not inside. The subject he wore was a thread-bare suitcase. The complaint rained paper onto a harlot garden. Tho invisible, walls were erected as mnemonic devices by decree of the commune. Writing survived the character by virtue of predatory extinction. In the center of the book was the eye of the hurricane—the paraphrase. Certain fleeting symbols held as vocation separated by an apparatus of misconduct. Some aspects of the interglacial have come full circle. ma
Natalie Basinski and Michael Basinski
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***** Collaboration is a direct form of derivation. Hence, ultra-quickly, we quickly enter the grand continuum of art.
Robert Garlitz and Rupert Loydell
from ABANDONED STORIES
WIRED
Arcade lights, triangles, deltas or pure line squares - lights splayed, tubed, spread flat, bound, bundled: however I try to package light I never can charge the wires enough.
However wired I am [green haze drifting] mind goes stain-glass, shatters into prism. Might have been a sacred window blown, certainly was a sacred vision gone now into dark questions ascending. Throw me into a tank of water, film me rising and sinking. Ok, Viola has already done what is to be done, but Flavin's fluorescence lights the way ahead. I fall through those pale violet portals - well, I would if I didn't also see the tubes making light of my desire to fall into some veiley hovering light sublime.
NO IDEA
Split the earth to get triple vision, divide the sky to get unified sight.
Your inner fire, a single bar heater, burns and scalds inside. This life hurts
your skin. Transpose it onto a fan of pages. Flesh become paper can then
be drawn on, crumpled up and discarded. The faint blue numbers and other scars
suggest worlds beyond neatly combed hair made stiff by gel. Dressing the part won't
fool anyone; parting the dress won't work beyond the initial surprise. The soft glow
against the firelight, dark rose leather binding, warm book against the hand, cold ink
unread in front of you, mind distracted by this strange pause that has gripped the world. No idea what silence awaits.
SECRET PAIN
Sci-fi diagrams, full shadow assembly required: trace figures against green-gold screen; assume multiple cuts and angles will keep parts where they should be. Part 13 slots into 15, but 14 is superfluous, only there for decoration. You will need to scrap your need for feelings, these diagrams include no emotive components. Keep edges clean and your blade sharp. Take no prisoners.
When you have put your life together consider the lilies, walk the field in moonlight, see how you have not had to deal with the shifting universe and all its complexities. Celebrate the silliness of everyday existence, move at breakneck speed.
Yet again, the banal beauty of it all will make us wince in secret pain.
DISCONTENT
Color-coded junction, slow interchange. Untoward stripes and dry brush of day. Envy is a disease, a square of vibrant green.
Purple stripes against black indicate the time for elegy has passed. Gutenberg lives yet while envy turns into pride and lust.
Our disease is a shorthand for coincidence. Events gather in nodes and clusters, drawn together by design. We are all envious of the man in the blue shirt who walks this way, smiling, content, sure.
He disappears into the distance with such conviction. Then all there is is sunlight on the stunted trees, our suburban lawn.
We want more than this sun and vagrant grass. What if it were impossible? Could we be still ourselves, not wanting?
GEAR CITY
Nature's secret machinery turned you on your head, broke down, burst forth, bled injury. Sprockets, vessels, gears, branches twisted against themselves and all we could do was point and hope the city noticed that things weren't as they might be. The engineer suggested we plant memorial trees, real blossoms reminding us of unreal loss. The gardener urged we encircle the trees with iron to make them secure. The bombs uprooted everything and made us nervous. Next day Sheila gathered what pieces she could find, arranged them on a wallsized frame and painted the whole thing Mars Black. Marvellous! Blend in with what's burnt, charcoal against charcoal, cinder against cinder. It upstages everything else in the city of night.
INVISIBLE FUSIONS
Yellow on top, blue at bottom, gradations between, chart becomes wheel, wheel spins under snow, light looks for another garden ready for minimalists all trying to 'paint the light' by painting icy blues and whites. Here, however, are fires and fusions, buds and blossoms, lilac, rhododendron, pink, white, fuschia, dutch blue iris, mountain lupine, hadean purple-blue flame. Roses, like snow, wait. Grandeur can slight anyone who prefers to be offended; sight lines come and go like morning frost.
Soon we will master personal ambient color and throw it around ourselves like clothes, choosing from this bright rainbow of hues that hangs in the air awaiting decisions. The future is mostly memory waiting to happen, an invisible spectrum of possible incidents.
Clank
Shoe
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John Crouse and Jim Leftwich
ACT THREE THOUSAND EIGHTEEN ACT THREE THOUSAND NINETEEN ACT THREE THOUSAND TWENTY
***** Statement relative to: "experience of creating"
much as motions: "initiated book to" resolve unhand land: "each line enacted" begs reaction getting: "it gives it" back whats volleyeds: "up in the" air over the: "colon as soon" as passing thru: "quotes read or" said net three: "words outstanding for" completely incompleted anything: "compliments anything incompleted" snags reactions backhands: "seizes amplifications teases" redoubled faultlessness infinitely: "more than two" weighs around its: "having balls falling" unforeseen precisions and: "eating it too." JC
Luke Kennard and Rupert M Loydell
The Last Morning
the last morning we choked on watermelon; a familiar room suffers everyone. sharp & incisive you could put out the stars, intending to imitate the spittle and bronze of a basic tongue but aphorisms won't wash. hands over ears I'm yelling at you: he had no proof of a second tundra.
adoptive compress nobody playing flute for the dogs on the street no time, the sacked agents twitch to the blam of the windbreaks, A friend of mine would like a word with you: 'The lumber of imprecation is no hazard to the way we should live our lives'. He left.
who shall I interrogate? memory is a sordid prism splintered light. Lord, be in my if not wholly there, dropping stones to prove it gravity of doubt. nil desperandum drudge lexicon: I should introduce you accompany you through the gulch ocean either side.
Dan Waber Jennifer Hill-Kaucher
#1
I know of at least a hundred thousand ways and mean means to disappear without letting on that I'm fulfilled with doubts and fears of the cost, the loss, the whole amount.
I've watched myself watching you do the same with your own alike yet different hides; words of colors, stitches, weavings away of the torn and twisted scraps of your lies.
But lies is too wrong a word for our walk, for the way we whisper the way we wish the world to be. Better to say your fall, the fall of nevereverending if.
Here are no eyes, no ears, no arms to grip; merely my words which shuffle, stumble, slip. #2 My dream ends are floating - deep starkness that leads into day where I shuffle words to leap. Safety in these letters a way
to shroud what is meant. You say loss and I think of wrappings torn on the floor, a fallen holiday of leaving. We should give in burlap
for the itch, cover ourselves plainly. Do you see? There is no fabric for this that doesn’t pull, isn’t vain in a way that makes me static -
clinging to science or order gravity finding me ungrounded. #3
I read your words (past and present tenses apply (do I dare say future tense, too? (no, no, not yet, too soon (there are fences (there are always fences (when there are two
people (it's their private territories (in disparate need of demarcation (graphite, charcoal, and ink scribbled stories (they merely resemble desperation
(in the words (where there is no way to lie (well, some try, but we both know better, yes? (or have I assumed too much (stroke of thigh (but I digress...unless...(yes, yes, confess
(I can't (not yet (please (wait (I will (tell (you )))))))))))))))))))))))). #4
I will tell you this: all is nothing and nothing at all with boundaries these places we live. We build wearing stones, mortar, wood. To explore these
open-palmed, stripped skies mirrors the living tree in November, pointing upward, series of veins and fingers just out of reach. Yes, appealing
it is to let go, peel. Underneath what universe lies in our art and age? Leaf by leaf the artichoke reveals the filaments of her heart, caged
beast. Better in the buttering Sweet - to taste without bitterness. #5
stark white plate placed below conversation, darkgreen thistle--buttered grilled turned, repeat; aioli cup caps the presentation, napkins crisply uncrease, a pause, he speaks:
"I hope you're not in a hurry tonight," then he smiles at both her and the platter. they begin by turns, being barely polite, eating around the heart of the matter.
garlic, butter, and the nut of the meat, petals pulled reluctantly through their teeth, sibilant sips lipsmack into sounds sweet, patiently probing for what's underneath.
centered in the wreckage, exposed, luscious, rests the tenderest answer, salacious. #6
Look in on me and speak in pattern unexpected, bright delight of vowels rounded, the words with symbol matter. I cannot read otherwise, the stark my eyes
refuse. Hear me chirping wildly bound in time hopeless in movement and golden rules. Order makes me stumble, crawl. A long climb our music is, stanzas breaking and as a fool
I forget to breathe between the notes and become dizzy, feel darkening dusk rolling in the corners of the room, floating. To break out of this body I may hush
like a blossom, lightly. Look in on me and speak in song, canons so sweet. #7
sin the hungered thou sand tear shove mmmeye _ife, know won (redespite wishpered congyring in the deap deark dove dizzy ire us ffflights), tolled too mee tease whorlds--basking ami two sing.
whow due rivhers flow-t-t-t ifwhen damns finale clash us under, oh pen why'd with possibilitease and whenif? eye can'tell yoooh sew mulch withis pen, oh
eye've scene whys and hows and whens and whats and neverythink inbe tween inbe asked and unanswerved, fall the wile weighting fore and aft two bumble bee kneaded deep ply and
inconsidered cape able of l(if)t. your weirds be the firstest witch h(us)h fear mmmm or #8
I have wanted to let go of this pen to loose the grip of fist around its vein but it has the same on me, as all men who dare to assume that I am not vain.
This is true, my face is not what it seems and you will see this or already do - Reflected in the cafe glass, gleams of eyeframe, straight down to bone and marrow.
I want to laugh - and slurring fly with you All that will escape from my mouth a hiss thin and strained. These words still seem too few and infrequent, but I can’t let it go.
What more will we have? Ink smudge stain on hands? For center, pupil of eye, I wait the days. #9
eye saw you (unabashedly) type cast world for word (am a zing ly), sew no say you a hiss (cruscendo) is just a hiss (bogart, bergman, sam and piano sway)
let me flay it all ought fore you, slur girl: your thin strained hiss iss a steam engine's seams, burr sting to oh pen the gaits...this allll seems, how much armsweep do you need to uncurl?
like Pan I am--will allways everr bee, I'll dance the length and breadth of creation to flow you how closed you uncome to me but be carefelt what you wist for, liebchen
when eyes are ope'd to possibilitease that know no no no-no bounds, some do seize. #10
I want to know what makes you real - gates of imagination opened like wings, this rise makes me feel the need to sink, swim or run
past whatever boundaries we created. Does love need reality? Whether you say eye or I see There is still what I wish, your deal,
sir. I bow to you, defer in slur that makes you laugh. Show me your hide Not your hidden in a flurry of letters, your beginnings sly
How long will you consent to distance? Seize touch sigh to breathe, I untwist. #11
quest (i(on(in)))' intensions is danger'us; layhers so me tiemes appear dis cleer up on insectshun for a not her(s), but knot us, we no that weirds we're de signed two toungle.
I meaned (see, meant) too tease thinks gent-ly free, too push too prod too probe in at around bound aries subly, s oft sssmmmoooth care fully. I see you'll have none of those silly sounds.
eye cande scrybe in al lure id detail this hide I'd hid in the ohpen for who sit sin he re insinuating y our mail, give you all you can you take you if you
untwistfull won mmmore furl, pleas, oft his scene; somewords reveil thinks unmeant to be seen. #12
A quest(ion) is less risky than to assume and I see that I have done both in my wonder I ask, What do you think of white blooms? to start the rumination above and under
around phrase and fable, lily of the valley. Hide or not I hand it all over to you in your shushing tease. My thaw of spring folly and rise to the surface is offered to few.
We live in all seasons but words find me confined to the vernal, equal light in stars and sun The leaf I pressed between pages is still veined with green scent, but is brittle to the touch.
Who will read these letters, wrapped in a color they don’t understand? Look and you see me (be)fore. #13
wit bl(.oO!Oo.)mmms (ahhh) insplode fall the weigh two hear, you a maze me wisp s(whee!)t sinplicity (eye remumble me be the won too cheer), innure decaydance, nature claritease
eye thunk of wit belooms the much they thunk of me (butt eye giggle jiggley more); they lonly sweigh, eye kneed too fligh!, spelunk¡ frumm the ways you wiggle wriggle (be)fore
f(all)ing intwo love is sum misnomer hit ist mmmm-ore luck untwo rise- lift- soar-!ng eye sea know hehe-mocean's breach comber becaused be why be y/our shoubtporing
know mat her who heart I try you still knead too here unanswerves: if you'll dance, I'll lead. #14
The whole world is our possession brilliant jewel alight from inside every insight of light possible dreams a different dream of quiet.
A comic brilliance how we make love from nothing, pressure applied through years to bear bijoux. By Jove we may never get it, the inside
joke - right, a trifle this alchemy of us that no one sees. You are there because I look. You appear for me through science and shadow, facets where
dawn greets evening. You who fill my heart with gems and laughter, a rare find you are. #15
succulent succubus sibilant shun b s r delicate intricate fricative slide i d i d confident conflagrant confluent sure r b s affliction affection inflection rhyme b i r d s s beau gestes elixir philosopher's stone i d dessicate piqued piquant panacea r r r sexton sextant allheal catholicon d i d i dapper dandy dips ave maria b i r d s b i r d s b b i r d s b i r d s subterfuge sleight of hand misdirection b i r d s b i r d s down it falls down it comes down it floats up b i r d s nevermind we don't mind interdiction b i r d s b i r d s I'd bow here at the end, coattails flipt up b i r d s b i r d s b i r d s b i r d s but these are just clever letters not b i r d s b i r d s how can you fall in love with only words #16
You hand me a conflagration of birds and their open spaces, expanse of sky twitter of feathers flutter in your words no accident in our fall and to ask why
would destroy by dissection, a cut-up cutout snowflake child’s artwork simple subtraction of triangle, square enough to create a blizzard at whiteout level
I want to capture all that flies at windows - words, birds, snow and my heart’s odd float for all to see the way the world flows. I am adrift in the way we devote
our words to the wisps of air, whirl and tilt confettied scraps married into quilts. #17
you are a conflagration of words and we're open spaces, expanse of why, twitter of whethers utter in my birds, (no accident in our fallen). To task sky
would descry by inspection; it's enough to cutout snowflakes. Our work's child level, subteraction of try angle, cut-up, two create a blizzard with Wite·Out® enough.
I want to be your all that flies, word flows, worlds, birds, snow, and my heart's devote, for all to see the weight of windows. I am adrift in the way we odd float
our words into wisps of care, purl and quilt confettied scraps into married tilts.
***** When writers woo, wily words will wriggle wickedly. We were wishing written words would wink while whispering, would wrap "we" within wanting's warp & weave. DW/JH-K
J.S. Murnet
Nape Intention
1) Nape luggage or your cubic phase 2) Blood’s brushed upon awake prints (princely) 3) Spent shoelace through your laundry mile 4) Tell truth torch feathery limelight gone to see(d) 5) Name cogs falling off the wheel 6) Sporadic tic tic almonds left in place 7) Truss sample or your runnel luggage 8) Rusting ample gauges wampum twice 9) Mice chewing in the handle troubled 10) Succumb to activist sprigs warming toward the ice pie 11) Drop the foci on your knee 12) Tell an officer who pays you fourfold two and two 13) Reach the dusty hammer in your leg 14) Constrain the tapeworm’s musical intentions
Numbers
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